chronic illness

Sleep: Why i couldn't and why i can now

Sleep: Why i couldn't and why i can now

I used to wake up, without fail, almost every single night. Providing I actually got myself to sleep in the first place, I would lie there in bed thinking about what someone had said that day and then imagine myself saying what I wish I had said, and then their new imaginary response. If only I knew then, what I know now...

Check in with yourself - the key to releasing tension in your brain and your body

Check in with yourself - the key to releasing tension in your brain and your body

Ever feel like you’re shoulders are tight? Do you get tension headaches? Maybe you need to just ‘check in’ occasionally. You might be a little like me, and walking around unconsciously tensing almost every muscle in your body. I’m reading a book at the moment, called ‘The Brain's Way of Healing’ by Norman Doidge, M.D. It’s a compelling insight into the way the brain works and the way the brain can heal, and how the body can heal by working with the brain.

Making us sick: how we are poisoning ourselves and what we can do about it

Making us sick: how we are poisoning ourselves and what we can do about it

It would seem the majority of us humans are slowly killing ourselves. It feels awkward broaching the subject with anyone. You don’t want to be the one to bring it up, to actually name the thing. You don’t want to appear callous or rude when your friend whines about how sick she feels after her third donut. As a society we are becoming more and more immune to it. We are overlooking it, looking around it, blaming disease and misfortune, and even justifying it as a choice....

Chronic pain: the challenge is not making it worse

Chronic pain: the challenge is not making it worse

In the past six months my life has changed dramatically. At one point I was in pain every single day (only the amount would vary). I was tired all the time even on a good day and I was stressed out of my brain. I was trying ever so hard to hold it all together, to create a happy and stable environment.

Worthy of loving... 

Worthy of loving... 

I hated myself - I drank myself into oblivion (and let me just say in defence of my 15 year old self, that was culturally very appropriate), but for me, that was not the answer.  The more I drank, the worse things got.  The more I didn’t like myself.  The more I didn’t like myself, the more I drank.  As you can tell from just these few sentences it wasn’t a pleasant situation.  It was killing me.  

Getting back up again. 

Getting back up again. 

Dealing with life can be overwhelming.  Sometimes it gets you down. When I'm struggling, here is what I do. First I’m going to give you a little insight to where I am at and how I got here. I’m not going to go into a whole heap of blow for blow detail about my childhood and adolescence and all the trials of early adulthood, but just enough to flash forward to today.  I might go into a bit more depth a bit later, but for now I just need to get to the current day so that each part of my writing comes from a very present space.

Is Bitching Bad For You?

Is Bitching Bad For You?

Look, sometimes a woman needs to vent.  Sometimes all the internal goings on get a bit too much and it feels like unless we let a little out, we are going to explode.  But there is a difference, quite a large difference, between using a friend as a sounding board to get some support and sort out your stuff, and being, quite frankly; a bitch.  

Can't sleep for thinking?

Can't sleep for thinking?

Thinking used to really stop me sleeping. I would think about things I’d forgotten, conversation replays where I would answer very differently then I had earlier in the day, things I wanted to do, plans, ideas… The thoughts would just arrive and PING! I’m awake.  A lady asked what I do to shut my head up and I realised just how long it’s been since I’d really had poor sleep...

Curing Fibromyalgia

Curing Fibromyalgia

So a quick run down;  I felt like crap all the time, I was FREEZING (wearing my ski clothes inside the house freezing), lots of headaches, and aches and pains throughout my body. I was exhausted, and I was sick and tired of being sick and tired.  No matter what I did I couldn’t shake this feeling.  It felt very similar to when you’re coming down with the flu, like you’ve been hit by a truck, but the sneezing and coughing never comes.  Some days I was bed ridden, other days I would be okay until about 2pm but then I’d run out of energy.